Brokenness

It is an amazing feeling when we experience the power and presence of God. When the Holy Spirit moves in such a powerful way that tears are a part of the response. I had this kind of experience one Sunday in preparation for a message. As I reflected on what God was doing in my heart there were four aspects that I centered myself on. I mention these four aspects because they caused me to become broken, even for just a moment, and because other people can maybe relate or be encouraged to seek God by reflecting on these aspects.

1. The Gospel — There is nothing more precious to me than the Gospel. The fact that Jesus died on a cross of my sin is mind-blowing. I don't deserve this kind of grace that comes through the cross, yet Jesus chose me before the foundation of the world to be apart of His eternal family. 
2. NonChristians — Preaching the Gospel is personal to me. I did not become a Christian until later in life, thus I know many people who are not Christians. I am aware that every time I take the stage to preach, there are people listening to me who do not know Jesus. 
3. My sin — I suck. It's crude to say but the fact is simple, I am a sinner. Until Jesus takes me from this earth there will be a battle between my flesh and my spirit. My propensity to sin sometimes causes me to tremble and realize my dependence on Jesus. Which leads me to my final aspect of reflection:
4. Dependence — I am dependent on Jesus ever day of my life. The moment I forget this is when I slip into sin, forget about grace, forget about the Gospel, and become lukewarm.

The merging of these four areas bring me to a place of brokenness. I do not assume it's like this for everyone, but this was my experience. The Gospel, reflection on those who do not know Jesus, my sin, and dependance on Jesus are the four streams of thought that bring repentance in my heart as well as tears.